We are all mothers in the same way that we are all students as well as teachers. The old woman singing to her plants on her balcony is just as much of a mother as the five year old, elated, with a new kitten.
I have moments when I look at my six month old daughter and I honestly wonder, 'where did you come from?'. She seems like a magical piece of stardust that just settled into my being, my home and my life, one inexplicable day. Of course I remember my pregnancy and birth, I relive it multiple times a day, and I am constantly amazed at how something so ordinary can be so extraordinary. The process of growing another human, creating life inside of you! Then being the catalyst in helping that human cross over from a totally different dimension and World into this Earth is as phenomenal as it is totally natural. There's a duality there that fascinates me.
I don't claim to be a superwoman, but I feel like I've just performed the biggest magic trick know to human kind. I feel as though the birth is the bridge that you cross from being an individual into being a mother. I feel empowered and there's an understanding, a camaraderie that I feel towards all women now. A sisterhood that spans thousands of years in time and space. I feel strong, and it is that strength that I draw upon dozens of times every day to help me be the best version of my new self that I can possibly be.
I'm still discovering this new self, and exploring the inner workings of my mind to see how my perspective may have shifted. It can be difficult to maintain your identity throughout motherhood; being completely intertwined with another person is a wonderful experience, but it's also one you can become utterly lost in. The strongest connection on the planet draws you out of yourself in a way that you can't ignore. It's magnetic.
It is with an even greater wanderlust to travel deeper into myself that I must dive into this new adventure. The paradox is that In order to move forward I must be still. In order to forge ahead, I must surrender. In order to really travel, I must go nowhere.
Every day is a new adventure with my daughter. Motherhood to me is the next frontier of unexplored, unchartered territory. It's a place I can't just pack up and leave if I don't like, or check out of if there are bedbugs. There are no trains leaving this station. All I can do is experience it in its fullest and remember that it's not the destination, but the journey.
In light of International Women's Day, I'm honouring some of my favourite female singers and musicians. Enjoy.